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I am a human and I involve and invest myself in things emotionally. By nature. Oh and at times I do present myself as a practical human being. But what I would not accept publicly and proudly is that I involve and invest myself in things emotionally.
How else would you plan things? I think that the details of planning are directly related to the level of your emotional investment. If you deeply feel about something, it will reflect in how you plan your future with it. It doesnt always have to be a person. If you think about it, we plan our future with a lot of other things, like our hobbies or dreams, a place, a decision, or a project.
I recently had to part ways with one such project and it hurt. It hurt deeply. I gave a lot to that project and I saw real potential in it. I planned my year around it and weaved dreams about it only to have them crushed in the end. However intentional, I know it wasnt a deliberate decision, especially directed toward me.
Having my year and of course, the goals, planned around it, I'm now left empty and slack, encouraged to find other things to indulge in. A few other things I know are: that I SHALL find these other things and move on and that the business doesnt think that emotionally about some things which are only a few of the million other things it does and that its not the end of the world. Some of you will say: "Its just a project Aditi." or "Dont get this attached to your job." But tell me genuinely, how else do you plan things?
I am a human and I shall always tend to get emotionally involved in things I care about. Why do I care about my job if the job (read: the Corporate) doesnt care about me that fondly, you ask?
Well, maybe because I want different things from life right now. Maybe because I have planned this stage of my life to have accomplished something worthwhile in my view. Not that the things I have done until now arent worthwhile! They were, in relation to that stage of my life. But at the moment, I want something more than that. Also, I do hundreds of other things in my job about which I'm perfectly balanced and practical. It cant and shouldnt be that bad if you emotionally invest yourself in one of those things.
I know its not a setback and I have not become stagnant in my professional life. But I shouldnt feel or be made to feel guilty about caring so deeply about something in my job. For what its worth, I'll do it all over again. I shall still involve and invest myself emotionally in something that I find interesting and worth enough to pursue.
Till then, goodbye Community :')
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